| Friday, October 3rd, 2008 |
| 3:04 am |
So been a while between posts as usual. Life is good. Mostly. Finally got my own place. W00t! Been looking forward to that for years! XD Cut off all (well, a lot) of my hair. And I LOVE it. I've had long hair since before I had RAM. Change is good sometimes. School is going well, although the lighter class load is making me feel lazy. Hopefully that will change once work picks up. Speaking of which, work stinks right now. I haven't had a gig in over a month. I know it'll pick up soon, but feeling the pinch lately. Til then I'll just enjoy the spare time and catch up on my video games. They've missed me. Least I'm healthy; or would be if I took better care of myself. About that little "Mostly" comment. What should a person do if they know something that could seriously alter, even derail their life, and likely drag a friends along for the ride? Keep quiet and hope it never comes up? Or fess up & deal? I'm not good at making decisions that affect paths other than my own, so I don't feel qualified to give advice here. Pondering that has me a tad buggered. But other than that (and the fact that I recently started into my 4th contiguous year of singleness, sigh) times are peachy! Current Mood:  worried |
| Tuesday, June 24th, 2008 |
| 10:27 pm |
So found out at school today that George Carlin died of a heart attack. I am quite bummed by this. I wonder if he got his 5-minute warning? R.I.P. man. Thx for the laughs. Current Mood: bummed |
| 3:11 am |
OK, hearing about this one hurt a little. And by little I mean "Gorram it I almost fucked up the cue I'm writing" (I heard about it at work since one of my coworkers knows what a freaking huge fan I am of this guy). The cue survived, and fortunately everyone was on headset in other rooms so I could briefly flip out in private. R.I.P. Stan Winston. Thank you for your amazing work over the years. *sniff* He was on my shortlist of people whom I really wanted to meet at some point, just to say directly to them how much I enjoyed their work. Well, and an autograph would have been absolutly cheeztastic. Sigh. Too late now :( Current Mood: sad |
| Friday, June 20th, 2008 |
| 9:23 pm |
I <3 rogues
Only licked to sugary coating so far, but 4E D&D tastes great. Got called nasty names for my Rock Band capabilities. Best compliment I've heard from them in a while ;D Made it to finals in Scene Painting, woo. Final itself is making me want to set fire to my flat tho. Cute fluffy clouds disturb my calm. In a weird mental state lately. Best description I can come up with atm for it is optimistically bummed. Even caffeine isn't perking me up all the time. Not depressed or anything, just seem to be on a mental flatline. Meh. Think I'm working my way out of it tho. You are in a mall when the zombies attack. You have: 1. one weapon. 2. one song blasting on the speakers. 3. one famous person to fight alongside you 1. Turbo Plasma rifle 2. Disposable Heroes 3. Adam Baldwin Current Mood:  calm |
| Tuesday, April 29th, 2008 |
| 1:25 am |
Just some basic life stuff
Way late on posting but oh the fuck well! Show went awesome. Absolutely fantastic. We got standing Os 2 nights running. Woot. Classes are finishing up, all passed. Woot part 2. Things are going well...life is good. Overall pretty happy, so not sure why I have been so blasted bummed at times lately. WTF is up with that? Blah, I don't know. It'll pass. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Tuesday, April 15th, 2008 |
| 2:16 am |
Found out at work today that gauze + gaff tape = the greatest work bandage EVER. Figured it would but was nice to be right :) Show is actually going pretty well this semester. One giant convoluted hassle, but going well. Current Mood: chipper |
| Tuesday, April 8th, 2008 |
| 7:11 pm |
Good times
So just finished an spiffy spring break. Nothing turned out as planned but somehow ended up better than expected. Love when that happens. Had to work, either at real job or at the scene shop at school all week, but got a couple days to sit on my ass which I needed. Used those to go visit OOT friends. Shiny. Been drifting away from the LARPs lately but this weekend may have changed that; session was awesome. Go Jack & Co. Looking forward to more :) Rehearsals start this weekend tho, and this semester's show is downright redonkulous. Looking at 12-hour days to start, hopefully less as things get worked out. Easy enough work just looooong. Nothing unhandleable tho! Current Mood: chipper |
| Wednesday, March 19th, 2008 |
| 12:30 am |
R.I.P. Sir Arthur C. Clarke. Thank you for sharing your mind with the rest of us over the years. Current Mood: sad |
| Sunday, January 27th, 2008 |
| 3:31 pm |
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| Thursday, September 14th, 2006 |
| 8:15 pm |
one of those weeks..
Well, this has been a pretty ok week for me overall, I'm just exhausted, but not so for many of my friends. A death in the family, a potentially debilitating medical diagnosis, and the totaling of a beloved car sums up how their weeks went. And all are things I can't really help with. I've spent time with them & done my best to comfort them, but I want there to be something more I could do. Sigh. Anyone else out there had a rough week? It seems to be going around. Current Mood: calm |
| Tuesday, September 12th, 2006 |
| 9:14 pm |
Normalities
School is going great so far, but we are still early in the semester. Lots of oody-goody things to do coming up over the next few months. Yay! I'm currently back on the upswing of life & liking it. I have become an official Guild Wars junkie now. You should all play! Or play MORE! Alright, now I'm no longer a junkie I'm a pusher. Upwardly mobile, I am. That's about it. Just hadn't posted in a few days and don't want to fall out of the habit again. Current Mood: cheerful |
| Monday, September 4th, 2006 |
| 5:46 pm |
Dragon*Con Aftermath
Well, back from Dragon*Con. Overall it was a pretty good time this year; fewer panels but the ones I went to were fantastic. Got to meet the Mythbusters crew, which was great for me. Got another fully signed Cruxshadows CD, got to sit and chat with Ego Likeness, and got to drink a shot with Voltaire. There were some memorable moments this year; that's for sure. Danced until the lights came on three nights running; I didn't go to sleep for Sunday "night" until the drive home this morning. I never realized just how enjoyable it is to lose yourself in the work of a good DJ or two. DJs Spider and Weasel, you guys rock. Sux we had to leave so early... Edge, you are very sweet. And you are HOT. You know it's a Voltaire show for the record books when he drops his pants during the Data song. Made some new friends & ran into some old ones. Made it onto the Cruxshadows stage again. Yay. And the winner this year is: Pirates, at 147. Ninjas only clocked 26, even with the entire cast of Mortal Kombat showing up. Corsets on men: 11 Jayne Hats: 19. Light this year. Women dressed as Wonder Woman: 4 Men dressed as Wonder Woman: 1. And he was the best of the lot. How many Leia's can fit on a Jabba? 23, because after that hotel security declares it a fire hazard and shoos everyone out. Seeing a three way lightsaber duel between the Borg leader, Master Chief, and random pirate #135: Priceless All in all a very good year. I am glad I was able to go, so thanks to my friends for making it possible for me. Current Mood: Still riding the D*Con high |
| Sunday, August 27th, 2006 |
| 4:36 am |
Changes
Well, I have made some rather significant changes to my life over the last few days. I guess it reflects my new outlook and attitude. I've complained for years about my job yet never done anything about it. So I did; I quit Friday and begin full-time college Monday. I was not sure if this was the right decision but I finally got sick of the "what if" game and just went for it. I made a choice & am sticking with it, and it feels great. If all goes well, in about 2 1/2 years I will be broke as fuck but hold an both the A.A. I've been working on as well as an A.S. I even know where I will be going for my Bachelors as long as the programs don't change. It's nice to finally have a goal rather than just drifting along. Current Mood: refreshed |
| Thursday, August 24th, 2006 |
| 11:36 pm |
Subtle Shifts
I am different now. I wonder if it is temporary? Current Mood: contemplative |
| Friday, August 18th, 2006 |
| 5:58 pm |
Nothing much
I have had so many thoughts & emotions tossed about in my head these last few weeks I don't know where to begin. I had a very eloquent night earlier this week, but the only internet connection I had access to at the time decided not to work for the evening. So I'm just jotting down a few things. In a way I have lost someone very dear to me; someone that was gradually becoming one of the most important aspects of my life. I don't know how to deal with how I am feeling now other than to ignore it and hope it fades, but that rarely ever works. Fortunately I have many wonderful friends who have supported me when I needed it, who have been there for me if I needed a shoulder to cry on or a set of ears to vent at. Thank you all; you know who you are. Even with all these friends around me I am feeling very alone right now. There is a new little spot of emptiness & I still have to figure out just where to move it so it matches the rest of the decor in my soul. I feel numb. Time heals most wounds as long as you apply enough of it. 14 nights & 35 vitae should fix this one! Grrr, if only it were that easy, right? I know this one will heal eventually, I just don't know how long it will take. It will get better though. Current Mood: cracked |
| Sunday, August 13th, 2006 |
| 4:29 am |
Emo-ment
Yikes. I don't normally say sappy wistful stuff, but I guess I just was having an emo-ment. Not like me at all. Glad I got that out of my system! Current Mood: normal chippery cynicism |
| Saturday, August 12th, 2006 |
| 4:55 am |
I . . .
All I need is your voice, a reassurance, a promise. All I crave is to hear your tender words spoken for my ears again. All I yearn for is you in my arms and myself in yours. I will listen if you speak; please don't be silent. I will be there if you ask; please don't push me away anymore. I will talk if you will listen; please don't judge from partial feelings. I will hold you if you will hold me; please don't turn away. I don't care whether you are my rock or my willow, my shelter or my freedom. All I want is you. I trust you with my soul. I believe in your strength. I cherish every part of you. I wish I was as invisible as I sometimes feel. I wish I could say what I truly felt I wish I could say what you want to hear. I wish I knew what you want to hear. I wish I could salve your sorrows. I wish I could quiet mine. All I dream is to be what you desire. Current Mood: melancholy |
| Wednesday, July 5th, 2006 |
| 9:55 pm |
Hello again world
*hack* *cough* Wow, it's dusty in here. Not been used for awhile. I think I'm going to straighten this place up and start using it again; lately I seem to have lost the ability to TALK about what is on my mind. Maybe my typed words will suffice where my spoken one haven't. Current Mood:  stressed over stress |
| Thursday, January 12th, 2006 |
| 11:26 pm |
Well, this place seems nice enough for a visit; haven't found a reason to want to live here. Gotta say that the award for best flesh buffet is still tied between Orlando & the former New Orleans. I need to hit up New York & Cali... Current Mood: complacent |
| 7:39 pm |
Off to find out what this new town has to offer! Current Mood: hopeful |
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